Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Spider Woman / Collage
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Push Mower
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
Found Poem (Already Complete)
Ash Wednesday
Monday, March 29, 2010
Beach House
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Pilgrimage
Holsteins.
Prosciutto, chevre, and fig preserves.
Radish, pinenut and serrano vinaigrette. Served over pork dumplings, which appear below.
Coworkers.
Simmering.
Santo and the radishes.
Mushrooms.
Pork dumplings.
Poles
There is only one thing you should do. Go into yourself. Find out the reason that commands you to write; see whether it has spread its roots into the very depths of your heart; confess to yourself whether you would have to die if you were forbidden to write. This most of all: ask yourself in the most silent hour of your night: must I write? -- Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet If the Greeks had looked at Mount Baker all day, their large and honest art would have broken, and they would have gone fishing, as these people do. And as perhaps one day I shall. -- Dillard, Holy the Firm Rilke takes me back to my freshman year of college. There my friend Gabriel and I would take turns giving each other Rilke books as gifts--writing earnest inscriptions on the inside covers, thanking the other for their friendship and encouraging the other to continue making art and living well. The above-quoted passage challenged me. I knew then that I wanted to make art a big part of my life. I knew that some of my most lucid moments came after experiencing art. But I wasn't sure I was ready to try my hand at making a profession out of producing the stuff myself. Rilke--who wrote with such gravitas--seemed to be saying to me that if I wasn't ready to give all for my art, I should move on to other pursuits. And for the most part, I have. Sure, I played around with a potter's wheel for a while, and I strummed a guitar in a band for a few years, but I've mostly split the last six years between work and graduate school--preparing myself for something distant rather than surrendering myself to something urgent. For the most part, I don't regret my choice. I'm pretty happy doing what I'm doing. Law school has been intellectually challenging and enriching, and I've met some damn inspiring people. But at the same time, with graduation just over the horizon, I've felt a real desire to create. A burden even. An impish little voice that wakes me up with ideas and chides me if I don't write them down. And so I'm making this blog. I'm doing other things too, projects I hope to share here. Hence the return to Rilke. Without intending to, I've come back to his words and felt braver in front of them. I'm not sure that I will die if I forego writing, but I'm resolute that it's something I want to do. Also, the Dillard. Her reminder that life itself can be more than enough--that we can lose ourselves in the natural world--feels true too. In fact, it is my desire to lose myself, to be the contented fisherman at the foot of Mount Baker, that has brought me back to writing. As much good as I can say about the past year, I have to admit I'm angsty. Something ain't quite right with my chi. I don't see any reason to drag this first post out, but here's to balance and to living right. |